quagmire
somebody quick, throw me a rope . . .
. . . on second thought, it is kinda cool down here
and squishy between my toes
I am already so far down
maybe drifting here isn't such a bad idea. . .
WAIT! No... don't talk like that--
remember "the after" ?
it is twice as unpleasant as this is nice
get up! go home!
you silly, foolish pit
I know I am in trouble when scolding myself becomes audible, even violently argumentative
I went straight home
just like I told myself to do
though I'd like to take this chance to say
I really don't think I should talk to ME that way
it isn't very nice
though neither is the other
which is all I was trying to tell myself
sometimes I just don't listen
certain things in life are badly timed
like contentment
mud puddles
and contention
all in one night
one doesn't make the others any easier to bear
it almost seems like it was planned that way
on purpose
I'm being silly, I know
i KNOW better than all of this--i do.
i just need to have a little pep talk with me
i just need to get this out of my system
else I won't be able to climb in to bed
and fall asleep
content.
unexpected garden
hail to the king!