Ordinary Life

  Doctor, My Eyes…   “ You are only a few numbers from losing your driver’s license  ”  My ophthalmologist was addressing my concerns about having  surgery.  “ I’m worried I’ll have this surgery but find cataracts aren’t the cause. I’ll be making a lifelong choice for glasses. ”  I explained.  He gently took the reins of the conversation. His answer, both figurative and literal, was resolved: “Oh, it is the cataracts. We’ll take them out and you’ll see .  “ I respect your expertise… “ I meant it “I just don’t understand why the cataract specialist didn’t operate at the beginning of all this .”  “ Because you’re young and there’s a bigger chance of retinal detachment when you’re young. But, it’s still a very small likelihood” he was completely convinced  “you’ll need readers, yes, but how are you seeing without using glasses now? “   His smile elicited a mental touche’ from my place in the oversized exam chair.  I s...

Suicide By Sincerity  There is a way to die  Slowly And all alone:  Be sincere  Now wait For the noose Of misunderstanding Cunning pulls the trigger Planting  e vidence everywhere  Choosing to live with sincerity, I am misunderstood, or sometimes,  more painful, purposely maligned.  Understanding these consequences,  still, I press on.  

DEEP SEA  SLEEPER   Yes, we are lighthouses Shining hope and direction for those Tossed at sea    But there is a time To turn out the light And go to sleep   

 I think I know now  The answer - at least in part: I have not wanted it to be true  I have wanted who I thought I knew To be the real you.  ~~  Wanting a true friend One who stays,  Sells everything to buy the field  Doesn't just walk away  ~~ There have been so many wolves in this house  Grandma, what big mistakes I've made.

What God Hates   God hates divorce , not divorced people.  God loves people. Let's pause right here because that is the entirety of what I have to say, but my word count is supposed to be a bit higher. As words multiply, truth grows muffled. So please, if I may, I’d just like to remind you today:  God hates divorce , not divorced people. God loves people. Statements like this tend to provoke argumentative replies from certain camps.  To follow  “God hates  - name any sin-  . ”   with a declaration of His love provokes a panic as if we’ve just turkey-dropped permission slips with God’s forged signature to all humanity.  Scenarios of affairs and abandoned families spring to the virile imaginations of many a worried mind. There’s real concern we’re gonna make God mad.  Imaginary scenarios are… imaginar y.  If someone is looking for validation to do or be a thing, that thing is, in all reality, already an inevitability. Sought aff...

For years I have been keeping notes on my phone and scrawled-on paper fragments in a scattered collection of what I refer to as  '  ThoughtStrings  '  I've often said that someday, I'll knit them together into a patchwork story quilt or two... which has been my reason for jotting stuff down in the first place... I want to come back, preferably at a more-quiet-less-busy time to think more on these breeze-strewn strands.  Sometimes, when I pick one up, I have no idea what I was thinking, or why.  Other times, I smile as I think back on the versions of me I have been, or cry (just a little!) over where I'll never go again.  Each time, I am grateful that I stopped long enough to take a snapshot with my pen.  Going forward,  I'll be sharing those old coat pocket scraps, tagged '  ThoughtStrings '   with or without commentary.  If transparency and vulnerability are essential ingredients to courageous writing, here's looking at m...